Marriage is the process by which two people who love each other make their relationship public, official, and permanent. It is the joining of two fearless people in a bond that last eternally.
Two of my friends are getting married this year. I will be part of both’s wedding. One invited me to become one of the bride’s maids and I will direct their pre nuptial shots.
It’s been a long time since I wear a gown, I mean a formal gown and I’m excited about it. The last time I remember wearing one is during my eldest sister’s wedding on December 1998, I was just 8 years old back then. I wore a dress and not a gown during my ex boyfriend’s cousin’s debut but I don’t consider it as a gown since it’s a dress that ended above my knee and I looked fat on it which I hated so much.
Directing shoots are very fun for me and I love doing it like a kid having their first piece of candy. I started enjoying it when we did a shoot in Intramurous covering my pre debut of my niece.
I always dream of wearing a gown on my debut but that didn’t come true, so my only chances to wear such is being invited to these kind of events or on my wedding day. So when this kind of opportunity comes, I don’t think twice but just grab it, sometimes I volunteer :). It’s about the simple joy I feel, when I see myself beautiful in a gown at times. I don’t know about the others but I love dressing up at times and internalizing how beautiful I am with the dreses I wear and with the make up I put on.
Talking about being involved on their wedding preparation makes me happy and sad at the same time. Happy because, lovely couples will be tying the knot soon, sad because I wish I will also do the same.
I envy them not in a bad way, I envy that they’re brave to face another chapter of their life, without fear, they will conquer another phase of relationship. I just wish that somebody fearless will be brave enough to face the future with me.
I love having ideas on how I would want someone to propose to me, on how my wedding would go about. All these things, is just a dream as of now.
My whole point is that, I always wish that one day, that day will be the best day of my life because I will wear the most beautiful wedding gown in my better half’s eyes, have the most awaited solemn ceremony with my family, confide the most heart warming wedding vows and start a married life with the gentleman who was brave enough to face a new beginning with me.

If that day comes, it would one of the happiest days of my life and I can’t wait for that to happen.